Twelve years ago today, my boss, the VP for the company, asked me to walk with him to see the VP of HR. It was almost the holidays – was I getting a raise, a promotion, written up, terminated? Every imaginable emotion and fear entered my mind. We got into Mike’s office and they shut the door and I sat down. I didn’t know what was about to happen, and I couldn’t have imagined it if I had tried.
My aunt’s voice came over the speaker phone and this voice explained that my dad was in ICU. Things had gotten bad and I needed to come home. Would I be flying? I said no, I would drive. I’d leave right away. Today. She told me the hospital name and gave me directions off of the interstate. After she hung up, I stood up, paralyzed. My boss, Charlie, reached into his pocket and handed me a stack of cash and said it was to help me get home. Mike would advance my pay cheque for direct deposit.
The next several days was a blur, as was most of the drive that night.
I seem to relive that day so many times, wondering what I could have done to prevent what was to come.
I miss you Daddy. It’s supposed to get easier with time. It’s been a decade and then some. 4382.91 days. It isn’t easier.
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